2010 Roll Out

It's been three months since my last real post. I've been writing like a maniac for everyone, but myself. I asked for it and I am grateful for it, as writing for others is what keeps me fed, sleeping in my comfy bed and the other necessities of life. The year has gone both quickly and slow, if that's possible. I started the year antsy in Kansas wanting the beaches of California and mid-year that's exactly where I ended up.

A big trip the move to Cali was and continues to be. Driving cross country in my little red car that could, through the flat, boring land of New Mexico, around the mountains in the dark somewhere outside of Phoenix to my resting spot in Southern California. I am here. At the beach or near it, just like I had predicted I would be at the start of 2010.

And now it's November. My days roll together like one continuous week. I've had two friends get married within the past several weeks and another getting married in one week, which I am the maid of honor for. This wedding has been a year in the making and I couldn't be more excited. What I've found from moving and commuting back and forth is balance.

Balance and calm.

I didn't start the year calm and am just now feeling the effects of what it will be, so as 2010 rolls out, I feel 2011 will begin just where I wish to be. It took a lot of changing on my part. It took getting rid of old ways that didn't work. With other people in my life, with myself. I feel that there has been a slate wiped clean. There is the residual from the plan that was chalked before, but slowly it's being covered for the new plan that's been put into place.

I asked for guidance. I asked for strength. I asked for focus. And that is why I am where I am. On the path. Strong. Focused. The one thing that hasn't changed is my ability to adapt, to have faith in times of chaos, to love in times of loneliness. Right around the corner I see it. Right around the corner it's going to be full speed ahead.

For now then, I will be slow and steady. I will be calm and ready.